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LOVED AND LOST



I dont know how many of us here have loved and lost. I love her and I lost her. It hurts like crazy but i can't do anything about it. I look out for her on my way to work, just one glance...one fleeting glance. I know I have never loved anyone this deeply and I know I never will. I was never so crazy about anyone and never ever will be. I love her smile, I love her eyes. i love her for being herself, for her "I don't know" to every question. Does she even know that I die every moment of my life realizing that she is not 'with me'? perhaps she did not understand me, she came into my life when I was in a real mess, I still am...but I'm trying my best! Just wish she did'nt leave me! But she fkin did.... she was the one person who could bring a smile to my lips and she always will be that one person. I know no one can take her place. Can't live without her! dont want to live without her. But I dont want to force myself on her. Maybe someday, she'll remember me with a smile and not a frown...perhaps someday she'll say that she loved me, even for a fleeting moment. As for me...She was the one I truely loved and I know no one will ever take her place. NEVER EVER!


Tum kyon chale aate ho
Har roz in khwabon mein
Chupke se aa bhi jao
Ek din meri baahon mein
Tere hi sapne andhere mein ujalo mein
Koi nasha hai teri aankhon ke pyalon mein
Tu mere khabon mein jawabo mein sawalo mein
Har din chura tumhe mein lata hoon khayalon mein....remember?

The Biggest Crush of my life.....part 2

and so we started chatting....day and night....
gradually started knowin each other.....and more and more...
but suddenly something happened....
she said she had a boyfriend....:((

i was not actually in love with her....but still...i dunno why it hurt me a lot...

i kept talkin..jus cuz I THOUGHT that we were frnz...
we both taunted each other in our class too.....not specifically on a thing...but jus like that....

she had her exam on 20th and that was maybe the last day till wen we talked properly...after that ..no msgs frm her side...and now not even a forwarded msg.......


we have completely lost touch...

miss u loads..SR

The Biggest Crush of my life.....part 1

i was there a bit late...was looking around for familiar faces....on the first day of my physics tuition this yr....

She came in....i looked at her....as i'd do with everyone who enters the tutorial room.....i jus saw and looked at my notebook...and suddenly again saw her....cuz she sat jus next to me....and then i read her Tee.....'twas written in big letters...OUT OF MY WAY.....and i jus came back to my senses....and tried to concentrate on my book....

after a while i saw her smiling with Charu...and that face was so damn innocent....loved the way she smiled and so i started my class room humour...jus to see her smile again and again...it wasn't that i hadn't seen such a sweet girl before...but i dunno y she had that glue which kept me engrossed.....


We had a test at the end of the class.....she finished it and went back...i gave my incomplete test and ran after her....but somewat cleverly!!....but my sacrifice for the test dint pay me:((.....she was very quick...and was gone on her activa...

waited for the next class...same things happened...but the difference was that mam was complaining that i dint concentrate!!!...

next class---i tried to cocentrate today...and looked at her...just thrice:P

and finally in the next class....or maybe after two classes....we both were released at the same time!!!(u know y i said released!!!)

and i was quite jolly that day....i was taking out my scooter...which was parked intelligently with her actve:P......i took out my cell...while she was putting it back in her back pocket...

and i actually dint know wat we were talkin before i suddenly said...."achha Swati...apna number to dede yaar"...and without wasting a sec ..unlocked my keypad...and the voice came..."mera personal nai hai yaar...mumma ka hai"...i,without any expression said...but fir bhi..kuchh puchhna hota hai...
**********...she said...and i said....cool number hai yaar!!

and then jus before i said bye...she said..tuition se aadha ghanta pehle hi call ya msg karna...i said ok and then bbye!!.....

as soon as i reached home...i msgd her and we started chatting.....i was on cloud 9 wen i saw her first reply!!