Sunday, July 29, 2007

The soul's out there waiting .... the body's here.. lying, drowning in alcohol ... trying to live...

The hours that passed talking to u... now find me walking on the roads fagging nd hiding my tears.

i dont have no control... over me.. my dose of beer.. the fags.. my eyes which long to see ur pic.
no-one t wipe off my tears no one to understand wat um going through.

i luv u nd i miss u...

Thursday, July 19, 2007

I got over you...i got rid of your memories. All the videos nd pics... nd ur mails.
Your number .... ur msgs.... everything associated with you.... almost.

The only thing that i cant get over is still left... left in my mind... the night u said that "YES"

Maybe i have a loads of frnz to help me get over u... but again... um just so alone within.

Just your YES i cant get over.....
i tried hard.. but it stayed in my mind to make me remember everything i tried to forget.

Ah... i dunno wat i became...I feel just like that wish... that was never granted........ in ur luv...
I feel just like that wish... that was never granted....
seems i asked more than what i deserved... but then.. what did i ask at all?.. to leave me amidst... amidst all these circumstances... that saw me all changed?

These wounds u gave me... they have healed... almost....

But your YES makes them fresh.. nd i cnt ignore em.

In this heart... many memories have stayed... nd left.
Its just YOUR love.. the time we spent talking.. the fun we had.... Its still there in my heart... buried deep somewhere...

When you talk of your present happy life.. i miss th best time of my life... The time i spent talking to you... walking with u... holding you.....
The day u agreed... nd laughed watching me go crazy.... the days i spent rehearsing those three words to myself...

the day i heard those 3 magical words from you... the time when we cried together cuz we couldnt meet.

The time u asked me not to go ..anywhere.. not to hang up... cuz u wanted to hear my voice... still there... Its u who has left... its u who changed ......

Sunday, July 08, 2007


No pressure at my neck.
Just the look on his face,
One I've seen too many times,
And the angle of his arm.
I look down, and what I see barely registers.
A glint of silver,
The sudden flicker of knowledge,
The feeling of trust as I don't think.
I only act. One flick and I prove the blade at my collar isn't sharp,
At the risk of my tongue.
But I knew it wouldn't be.
The look, half unsurprised half annoyed, on his face is perfect,
Caught in the street light,
And I can't help but smile. All the times there's been a blade to my neck,
Always wielded by a friend,
The times it's drawn blood, the times it hasn't...
I don't even flinch any more.
And as I walk, happily pinning him, I can't help but note There's only one difference between then and now.
I know my knife carrier won't hurt me in the now.
And it brightens my step a little more.

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Who to blame?

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world. "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Take off all your envies, jealousies, un-forgiveness, selfishness, and fears. And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

Sometimes we spend time in asking who is responsible or whom to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. By this way we miss out some warmth in human relationship.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Another meaningless crappy mail....

Feb 8, 2007 10:16 AM

love on the internet.....dnt miss a single word honey....

Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,
One day I got e- mail and in it was you.
Charming, sensitive and so debonair,
I strongly resisted it go anywhere.

But letters and stories captured my heart,
Filled me with passion almost from the start.
Love on the Internet, how could it be?
These things just don't happen to people like me.

But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,
Carrying messages we could not deny.
Each person has meaning and love to express,
And we could deny our hearts nothing less.

It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,
Something beyond any words we discuss.
Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,
Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.

My love's not confined by what it can see,
I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.
Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,
"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."

It's the soul that captures God's love in a way
That eternally melts hearts together to stay.
Fused and sealed forever as one,
Love has its way and new life is begun.
Feb 8, 2007 10:04 AM dis is d 1 expressing my true feelings,though it aint written by me...but still d feelings r mine.....

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!

Just today... i surfed my box.. nd found a millions of these...
Of course i did drop a tear..or maybe more.
There was a time when each one of these were so important for me. Every mail... the very sight of a mail from you made me crazy...
But today... wen i see my starred mail list...
i find crap... total crap of 150 MB....

Sunday, July 01, 2007


The moon is only half my smile is half real
My head is still filled with the memories of you....that brought me so much joy then so much pain

the tears arent mine...but yours and the stars fall from my sky
as if to tell me...that there's nothing I can do......but sit back and watch them fall

and as much as I reach to you the sky gets darker the moon just gets smaller....until I cant even fake a smile