Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I don't really want to say goodbye....I don't really want to leave you.....
But now I have to go away.......Stay away from you forever

What we had was never special to you...

But now I have to go away... *sob*
And leave you from my heart... cuz maybe u dont deserve me...

Nd i bet u'll feel ditched again.... but then..no Vishaal wud be there to help u...
ah..no :(.

maybe i'll stil help u..but still i'll have no respect fr u...nd fr the girls of ur
kind..
i wont be as nice as i was... ever...

Cuz being nice hurts...hurts like hell... nd yea.. dont tell me that u dont know
how to flirt...cuz in that case...u'll have a live example contradicting...

Cnt frget you... cnt love you...nd cnt even hate u... cnt even get over you :(

u have made me helpless.. but this is a test.. that i have to pass...

i let u go...cuz i thought if u ever were made fr me...
u'll be turning back... with a lil hope in my love.... i do believe...


But on the same time i pray to god.... that u never feel the pain u gave me...
nd um happy to se ur happy.

these mixed feelings wont take me anywhere... nd i still guess... i'd win this war.

But who cares!

U never did love me..

U can tell me... u love me,
U can tell me... u care,
But I can never trust u,
No not again...

U broke my heart,
Left it shattered.
And then u walked away.
U left me speechless what could I say�

U said u would never leave me,
That u loved me forever.
But now I know the truth,
U loved me never.....

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Wat am i left with?

Laying on my chair... with headfones stuck in my ears.. eyes closed... no light will i see.
I think of the best moments of my life...
I think that u've been playing all around with hearts... u've been playing with my trust... Just cuz i become so weak in front of u... Just like a slave for you...
Um getting high on thoughts.. of u... ur fav clothes...ur fav foods......which u made me learn...
The way you looked at me..drove me crazy... the feeling of being on cloud nine everytime u smiled....
the times we saw the sun setting.. the times we actually LIVED..
The times when u said u were immature...
the times i hugged u when u cried.... the times i fought for u... the times u felt low...

But..as i open my eyes.. i find nothing around me.. no one infact.
Have i lost everyone?... or is it that u have made me a social retard?

All's gone now... all love.. all the beautiful rains... all the green nd sweet evenings.. all friends..
all parties....

What am i left with?
Just a pad to write my own story?
Or all the horns nd pains nd invisible wounds on my heart?